I woke up to strange sounds in the dark\u2014low humming at first, almost like a lullaby whispered through clenched teeth. My eyes fluttered open, disoriented, still half lost in sleep. For a moment I thought the sound belonged to a dream that hadn\u2019t quite released me yet. But then the humming shifted, stretching into soft giggling that didn\u2019t belong to the quiet apartment or the man sleeping beside me. It was wrong\u2014too playful, too eerie for the middle of the night. My heart began to pound as I turned toward Sayed. The dim glow from the streetlight outside traced the outline of his body under the blankets. At first I thought he was just moving in his sleep, but then his arms jerked awkwardly, flapping against the sheets as if he were trying to push himself through water. His head rolled from side to side, lips moving in broken syllables I couldn\u2019t understand. His eyelids twitched violently, and beneath them his eyes seemed to be rolling back. A wave of cold dread washed over me. For a split second my brain refused to accept what I was seeing. This wasn\u2019t a nightmare or some strange sleep habit. This was my husband\u2014my calm, careful, rational husband\u2014convulsing gently beside me like a stranger wearing his face.<\/p>\n
\u201cSayed!\u201d I screamed, grabbing his shoulders and shaking him. His body was warm but limp, unresponsive. The humming turned into another burst of childish giggling that made my skin crawl. Panic exploded through me. My hands trembled so badly I almost dropped my phone as I grabbed it from the nightstand and dialed 911. My voice cracked as I tried to explain to the dispatcher what was happening\u2014that my husband was making strange sounds, that he wouldn\u2019t wake up, that I didn\u2019t know if he was having a seizure or dying in front of me. The dispatcher\u2019s calm voice tried to steady me while instructing me to keep him on his side and watch his breathing. Seconds stretched like hours. By the time the paramedics burst through the door, Sayed had gone completely still. Too still. They worked quickly, checking his pulse and shining lights into his eyes before lifting him onto a stretcher. Under the harsh hallway light, his face looked strangely peaceful, as if nothing violent had just moved through his body. That frightened me more than the seizure itself. I rode in the ambulance beside him, gripping his cold hand while machines beeped around us and the city lights blurred past the windows. I kept whispering his name over and over, terrified that if I stopped, he might slip somewhere I couldn\u2019t follow.<\/p>\n
The hospital swallowed us in bright fluorescent light and quiet urgency. Doctors moved around him with clinical efficiency\u2014blood tests, brain scans, neurological checks. I sat in a hard plastic chair in the waiting room, clutching a paper cup of coffee I never drank. Hours passed in that sterile space that smelled faintly of disinfectant and exhaustion. When a doctor finally approached me, his tone was calm, almost reassuring. He explained that Sayed had likely experienced a mild seizure, possibly triggered by stress or severe sleep deprivation. They hadn\u2019t found immediate signs of neurological disease, though further testing would be needed. The words should have comforted me, but they didn\u2019t quite land. Stress and lack of sleep had been part of Sayed\u2019s life for months. He\u2019d been restless, distracted, often staring into space as though listening to thoughts I couldn\u2019t hear. Standing outside the glass wall of his hospital room, I watched him sleep with wires across his chest and a mask over his mouth. He looked fragile, like a version of himself stripped of all his usual control. A nurse quietly approached and asked if he had shown any unusual behavior recently. I opened my mouth to say no. The answer came automatically, polished by months of avoidance. But it caught in my throat, because deep down I knew the truth was far more complicated.<\/p>\n
For nearly a year, Sayed had been changing in subtle ways I tried not to examine too closely. It began with longer hours at work and constant fatigue. Then came the late-night restlessness. He would slip out of bed after midnight, saying he couldn\u2019t sleep. Sometimes I\u2019d hear him pacing the living room or murmuring on the balcony. When I asked who he was talking to, he always gave the same casual answer: work. I wanted to believe him. Life was already heavy enough with bills, uncertainty, and the constant pressure of trying to keep everything together. Questioning him felt like opening a door I wasn\u2019t ready to walk through. But the uneasiness kept growing. His phone was always face-down. Messages appeared at odd hours. And then one night, as he stepped out to take a call, another message lit up his screen on the bedside table. The name read: Nadia. I stared at it longer than I should have, waiting for my mind to produce a harmless explanation. When he returned, I asked casually who she was. \u201cA coworker,\u201d he said quickly. \u201cShe\u2019s going through a tough time.\u201d His voice sounded rehearsed, and his hands trembled slightly as he slipped the phone back into his pocket. I told myself not to overthink it. But something in my chest had already begun to crack.<\/p>\n
After Sayed returned home from the hospital, life tried to resume its normal rhythm, but nothing felt the same. He was attentive in a way that felt almost guilty\u2014bringing me tea, apologizing for scaring me, promising he would slow down and take better care of himself. Yet his phone rarely left his hand. Messages continued late into the night. Nadia\u2019s name stayed lodged in my mind like a splinter I couldn\u2019t remove. One afternoon, while Sayed showered, his phone buzzed repeatedly on the coffee table. I told myself not to look. Trust meant respecting boundaries, I reminded myself. But fear is louder than principles. I picked it up. The screen was unlocked, and the message thread was already open. Nadia had written: \u201cDid it happen again?\u201d Another message followed: \u201cYou promised you\u2019d tell her.\u201d My stomach dropped. I scrolled upward and found dozens of messages\u2014long voice notes, worried questions, conversations about episodes and memory gaps. And then I saw the videos. Short clips of Sayed sleeping, laughing strangely, arms flapping as he murmured in a voice that sounded younger and unfamiliar. The exact same sounds that had woken me in terror days earlier. Only these had been recorded and sent to Nadia. My hands shook violently as the reality settled over me.<\/p>\n
When Sayed stepped out of the shower and saw me sitting on the couch with his phone in my hands, he stopped instantly. For several seconds we simply stared at each other, the silence thick with realization. Finally, he sat down across from me, shoulders sagging as though something heavy had been lifted simply by being discovered. \u201cShe\u2019s not what you think,\u201d he said quietly. I didn\u2019t shout or accuse him. Instead, I asked the only question that mattered. \u201cThen what is she?\u201d Tears filled his eyes as he explained everything\u2014the sleepwalking episodes that had begun months earlier, the strange dissociative moments when he woke up with messages he didn\u2019t remember sending. Nadia, he said, was a therapist he\u2019d met through an online forum for people with sleep disorders. She had been helping him understand what was happening. He had hidden it from me because he feared I would see him as unstable or dangerous. As he spoke, the betrayal shifted into something more complicated. He hadn\u2019t been living a romantic double life\u2014but he had been sharing his deepest fears with someone else while keeping me in the dark. I placed his phone on the table between us and took a slow breath. \u201cSecrets break marriages,\u201d I said softly. \u201cBut honesty might still save ours.\u201d That night, when we lay down together, I listened carefully to his breathing in the quiet darkness. There was no humming, no laughter\u2014only the fragile sound of two people awake, finally facing the truth they had both been avoiding.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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